Now those who are on the emotional side see the ego of others, while those who are on the ego side see the emotions of others. So one criticises another, but they don’t see themselves that they are falling a trap into one of the extremes. So unless and until you are detached, you cannot see it.
I will not say I did, committed a mistake, but it happened to be a mistake. For the first three years of Sahaja Yoga I never talked of a bhoot. I thought I’ll be able to manage without that. But a lady came in Sahaja Yoga who was possessed and who tried all kinds of tantric tricks, so I had to tell them. Now every Sahaja yogi is a bundle of bhoots! You ask any Sahaja yogi, “Why did you do it?” – “Must be a bhoot.” If you say that “How is it that you have done such a thing?” then they will say that “I do not know, it’s the bhoot who has done.” They are never there – all the bhoots are there. Now I don’t understand how to deal even as a Guru, because if My disciples are there I can tell them, but if they are bhoots, what am I to tell them? I can talk to Sahaja yogis but not to bhoots, they won’t listen to Me. So this is the greatest escape that Sahaja yogis have found now, which is the worst, which was never before. So sometimes I feel it was a mistake I introduced this word “bhoot.” They excuse themselves by just saying, “Mother, it is some negativity.”
Unless and until there is something in you that contains the negativity, how can there be negativity? If you are detached, if like stone, then you cannot contain this negative water in itself, in it. You don’t become more negativity, you become more a guru. Now, when I say that you should not be negative – supposing under such circumstances you should not be a bhoot, you should be yourself – then they start feeling guilty. So all kinds of anti-guru tricks are working out. I am your Guru, and it is anti your Guru to play these tricks upon yourself. Now you will play these tricks with Me, what’s the use?
You have to gain something, and you are playing trick against yourself if you are playing them against Me. You have to be more aware. You are not to be destroyed. Apart from that you have to save others. How will you do it, in case if you do not accept that it is your privilege, that it is your fortune, that you have been chosen to be the medium of God’s work?
Sometimes I feel all the bhoots have come to Me for realisation, and I am now going to become a bhoot Myself! “Bhoot” also means “Bhootnath”– is the name of Shri Shankara, Shri Shiva, because He gets after the bhoots all the time. But you have to be the present and not the bhoot – “bhoot” means the past.
Then what is there to be known? You become. Then you are in the present, you just start becoming, evolving, blossoming. Try to be in the present. Do not escape the present, face it.
Don’t feel guilty nor blame the bhoot; both things are going to take you away from the present. Now just see the whole nature, the whole divine Power, your ardent desire of ages – everything is on your side. The time has come. You are just there. What have we to do? Just stand in the center, at the axis. Try to keep yourself at the axis, and then you just see the periphery moving, you don’t mind. When you see yourself misbehaving in any way, punish yourself. It is better that you punish than the Divine punishes you, because that’s a severe punishment. But do not feel guilty because you have not done anything wrong, it’s the bhoot which has done!
So we come to the point that we should realise that we are gurus and we cannot be bhoots. We have to change our outside also, to become good gurus. For example, we have to learn good manners. Then these manners become your nature.
Sometimes, people who are very fond of food, I always tell them they should fast.
Whatever you are fond of, try to give up. Try to overcome your sicknesses of attachments, your habits. Once your Guru Tattwa is established, you’ll be accepted as a guru. There will not be any need for you to say that you are a guru, people will know that you are. We don’t have to then write on our foreheads that we are gurus, people will know that this is a guru walking; you can see the divinity walking, you can see the dignity walking, the glory coming up.
You have to change from within, and the light of that within enlightenment will be shown outside. But it should not be a mental idea or an emotional idea, but should be the happening, the becoming, the awareness. You have to experience, through your own experimentation upon yourself.
H H Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi,Nightingale Lane Ashram, London (UK), July 4th, 1982