….you start seeing clearly, very clearly, that all these conditionings had blinded us completely and misled us into a wilderness.
Of course, about ego, in the West people are extremely conscious. There was a leader’s wife. I said, “Why don’t you help your husband?” She said, “Mother, I’m worried about my ego.” I said, “Why?” “If I start doing some work, this ego might develop again, so I’m rather worried.” They are so conscious of it, that this ego should not come back. One fellow who came to Me and I was talking to him, then he just ran away. I said, “What happened?” So he said, “No, those people who go close to Mother always develop very bad ego. So I don’t want to be there close with Her.” So, is a such … (laughing)… such a mind that sees madness, that sees insanity, that sees immaturity, it sees vulgarity, it sees deceit, hypocrisy, everything so clearly: and in that state, he gets confused and quite upset, wants to run away from everyone.
Then we have some sahaja yogis who have such problems, who come to Sahaja Yoga with problems. Then, these people see them with these problems they are still continuing. Now the Sahasrara doesn’t want to accept it. “It’s terrible. I was like him. No, no, no more. Me, I don’t want to be like that.” So, they abhor the person who was just like them; they just can’t bear him, they just can’t tolerate. Then I would say still you have to grow. You have to grow, your Sahasrara has to be cleansed out at such a speed, at such a level and stage that, like soap cleanses everything, it should cleanse everything else, should not be afraid of anything, should not have any worry about the conditionings of others or ego of others: that is the state now we have to reach…
I wish and I hope that all the thousand petals of your Sahasraras will be so cleansed that you will never catch from anybody; you will never be frightened of anybody. You will be masters of all kinds of curatives and also you will be the one who can give solace, peace to others; you will be the one who’ll be organising programs outside, you will the one who will be responsible for Sahaja Yoga. And when that happens, then we can see that these thousand petals of the Sahasrara have opened out.
These thousand petals are not yet awakened. They signify the different thousand powers of the Goddess, minimum of minimum. These thousand ones you can open out yourself by introspection, by looking at yourself, making fun of yourself.
“Know Thyself” means know yourself with all the defects you have and also the potential you have and all the good points you have. So as far as you are concerned, when you are looking at yourself you should just see to the defects that you have. “Why do I behave like this? Why do I assert so much? What’s the problem? Why can’t I see myself clearly?”
With that transparency of your Sahasrara, you can see your heart, you can see your mind, you can see yourself fully, clearly, what’s wrong with you. This transparency can come only if you have really the pure desire, shuddha iccha, to be of that level. Now, there is no competition between A and B. We don’t say that, “You got the first prize for coming out of the Sahasrara” (laughing) or we don’t say, “You have the second prize.” There’s nothing like first, second in Sahaja Yoga, because we are not running the race. There’s no competition between us. Whatever we are doing is for our own satisfaction. …
H H Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi, Sahasrara Day Puja. Cabella Ligure (Italy), 9 May 1993.