Extrtract of Talk of H H Sri Mataji Nirmala Devi
…………..I am happy that you all have adjusted yourselves in this small space. When there is love and understanding, little space can occupy many hearts. But, when there is no large heart then whatever one may get it is never sufficient. Today, we are going to worship Shiva Tattva within us, principle of Shiva. For all Sahaja Yogis it’s very important, because Shiva is the ultimate we have to achieve. Shiva is represented in our Spirit, so to become Shiva is the ultimate aim of everything else.
The rest of it is all created, like Vishnu tattva and Brahmadeva, just to create human beings, to evolve them and then ultimately lead them to Shiva. That’s the ultimate. But human beings get so involved into the Brahmadeva’s tattvas that even to get into Vishnu tattva is difficult. They get involved into the five elements which have created us that is the outermost being within us. All the chakras have the outermost, we can say just the vessel, but the desire to be the spirit is of primal importance in Sahaja Yoga. So we have to see inward towards ourselves as Sahaja Yogis, do we have that desire entirely? Or we have still many desires hanging around?
See the greatest problem is of the Nabhi chakra, whether it is in the east or the west. Some people still have hankering for the baser search of food, which is very surprising, even in Sahaja Yoga, of nabhi chakra.
Then, still some people have sense of possessions and money quite a lot. And subtler and subtler they grow, still the detachment doesn’t develop within them. It becomes subtler. As you grow subtler, the attachment becomes subtler and difficult to get out, specially people who come up as leaders in Sahaja Yoga or closer to Sahaja Yoga are always under attack. They are attacked maybe by their husbands, wives, brothers, sisters, sons, children – something like that.
And that makes it worse because all such leaders who are attacked try to displease all the deities by small things here and there. The whole behaviour has to be understood that you have become a subtler person and you are rising higher, so naturally the negative forces are going to attack you. Always the front line is under attack, not the back line. So those who are in the front are always under attack and they have to be very careful as to how they are behaving. For if there is a sly person, he will become sly, but subtler sly. He will not just become the other way round. His slyness will become subtler. If he is a miserly fellow, then he will become miserly in a subtler way. Or say, if he is an ego-oriented fellow, then he become ego-oriented in a subtler way.
But to get rid of these things within you, you have to go to the other side of it. Say if you are miserly, you become absolutely generous, give up everything that you have. Don’t be calculating, don’t talk of money, don’t worry about money. If you are extravagant, indulgent too much, you should go the other way round. Unless and until you become juxtaposition, you cannot get rid of these things. Like if you are hot-tempered man, very hot-tempered, then become so mild that even if somebody beats you, it’s all right. Whatever one says it’s all right. That’s how you get rid of your habits which become subtler and subtler.
There’s another way of dealing with it, being alert. When you are alert, you start seeing yourself as a separate person with the habits that it has, and then you start understanding why you are behaving. Oh I understand, I knew you before, ten years back, before my realisation. I know mister you are like this, and then take juxtaposition against that personality and just shoot it off.
Like a person who is a negative, left-sided person. Whatever you may do for that person, he will become subtler and subtler. Suddenly, if it’s a girl, she will start just crying for nothing at all and feeling miserable. If it’s a boy, if he thinks about, analyses – he will become analyser of Sahaja Yoga also, in a subtler way.
Then what they should do is to stand before the photograph and see the reflection, that’s the other one who died. And just try to make fun of that or shout at it, depends on. If it is an aggressive stuff, it’s better to make fun, because it’s stupid. And if it is the one who takes aggression, then shout at it, what do you mean, by taking aggression like this.
All these things, you see, are keeping you away from reality. Your being has to be cleansed. With your help only I can do it. Many people say, All right, I am and I can do everything. But only thing I cannot surpass your freedom. That’s a fact. I cannot cross over your freedom. And when I cannot cross your freedom, you have to cross that. If in your own freedom, you come inside, then I will bestow upon you all the blessings. But if you want to stand outside I am not the one to put you in with a pistol.
No, that’s not the way it will work out. This is one hurdle that Sahaja Yogis must know that at every moment you are free, and freer, and freest. The more free you become, the worse is your situation as far as the facing of the negativity is concerned. Say there are four persons around you. They will be first attacked. Naturally you can understand the front line is always under attack, not the back side. Though according to the law, it should be the back side because all these horrible negative forces should come from the back. But they are very clever. They know that the back sometimes drop off by themselves; there is no need to go that side. They try the front line. And those who think they are in charge and responsible have to be very careful as to how they behave, how they are responsible, how they work it out. If they are keeping their old habits at a subtler level or they are just fighting it. It’s very important. And this is how intelligently you can manage yourselves.
Shree Mataji Nirmala Devi
Shivaratri Puja. Sahaja Yoga Temple, Delhi (India), 11 February 1983.